- xiaolex* i really wanna be with you

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

why do the world of my friends
treat me so good
so good that i don't want to grow up
why
when i feel so down they are here
suet jie, xiia0zhu, baobei, baby, everyone, von sis
they bother to care
why am i so fortunate to have you guys
what did i do to have you guys in my life
remembering me, conforting me
loving me
as though i'm a taisetsu na tomodachi
i don't worth all these
after all the sins i did
after all the lies i told
all the trouble i did

why are you guys here

i really love you guys
don't want you guys to go
not forgeting my brothers, my online friends
everyone arnd me
thanks for being here for me
some may not even remember me anymore
but lex really is happy
that you guys passed by me already
thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks.
thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks.
thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks.
thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks.
thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks.

when i am so that bad

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 10:35 AM
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Till The End of Time - lex

stain in my heart
cut deep into the soul
what you left me
was just some shattered dreams
you made me believe
in my world, its just you and me
now that the black clouds pass
you leave me here

oh girl, what could i have done
oh girl, what could i have say
we were once the couple people envy
i will forgive the things you do
the foolishness and playfulness
i'll be here with you
till the end of time

its been just days since we met
but the memories we shared
will be forever engraved
i gave the world to you
in exchange for that little piece of you
will you be a changed person
for the return of what we had
will you start anew
and say those words 'i love you'
once again?

oh girl, what could i have done
oh girl, what could i have say
we were once the couple people envy
i will forgive the things you do
the foolishness and playfulness
i'll be here with you
till the end of time

and then my heart quavered
showering down the face of earth
as i gave that world yet to another girl
will that girl
give me the world of hers
i broke down to the depth of the ocean
only to find my heart broken into pieces
please mend my heart
to the girl, that will be appearing in my dreams

oh girl, what could i have done
oh girl, what could i have say
we were once the couple people envy
i will forgive the things you do
the foolishness and playfulness
i'll be here with you
till the end of time

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some people want a noisy birthday bash
but to me
i just want it to be romantic
with the girl of my world =)

may my wishes to the world lovers come true

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 10:22 AM
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

why... tell me why...
i really don't know what should i do anymore
why have opportunity appear everytime yet i won't say yes?
why? am i so stupid? can nothing help me?
hais.. i really wish to say yes
yet i don't want to disappoint myself
tell me how?
i really scared of regretion
is it wrong? hais....
if only i know the answer
may time tell everytime
i still feel dumb

slash my wrist
bye world

i want. i really want but... hais... tell me first...

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 5:16 PM
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

went back to audition
seems like no one is tricksteriing now
2nd job doesn't seems to appear either
yeah. went back aud
ao many new things. buddy system is here also! ^^
met alot of new friends again. =D
xiia0zhu, jan, eileen, tim and many many other cool peeps
i just started learning 8k. ^^
when i can 8k 120 le, i'll learn 8k chance. ^^
woots~ but i need to juggle my studies too
no way my gpa will drop this sem.
yep. currently quite satisfied with things
just that i know there's a project submission on week 5
- -" thats like so fast. ><
thats poly life i think.
and i realise i speak chinese too much! NOOOOO!
speak more english, speak more japanese!
yeah. 10 more days~ countdown ah~~
see which of my sec school friends still remember. =P
so many scorpio friends. LOLS!
oh well. xiia0zhu, you better dun say out k!
its not like i tell everyone what that is!
=D
oh well, take care world, i hope things changes somehow
till den, bye~

will this year be a change? will my resolution
come true in the end? something i look forward to. =D

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 1:24 PM
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Monday, October 23, 2006

school reopen already
singapore's school holidays are starting though
dammit. why must our holidays be different
HAHA. oh well. life's like that
ain't enthu for school though
i wonder when will education ends
its so tiring

can't wait for my birthday and christmas
however i don't feel the electricity if my birthday
it will be some like the same every year
to the arcade or something
how i wish... there are things to look forward
or to be with.
yawning while waiting for class to start
feel like sleeping

oh well. nothing much le.
will update sometime
will you be mine?
i hope for my birthday
or latest before christmas. =(

futari wa isshoni ; sekkai no tameni

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 2:49 PM
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Saturday, October 21, 2006

yiting ask me to blog something more happy
and i was thinking
what is true happy?
seriously 18 years soon, i only found real happiness twice
one is that i can be tgt with my 2nd ex (now its only memories =D)
and another one, is when i appreciate my family and friends
from my heart
what more could make me real happy?
i thought for it for awhile
and its the 2nd one that can replace my 2nd
blur? HAHA
oh well... forget it.
looks like its a lonely birthday and festive season ahead again
=D i'll get used to it somehow
oh well.....
till then nights world..

would you take my hand, and let me kiss you gently?

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 4:16 AM
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Friday, October 20, 2006

things always happen and i wonder why
many things i don't know myself
what do i really want in life?
can these things be erased from me?
i knew i did something wrong
i knew it all along
but maybe it just didn't work out
back to the old me i guess
that suits me best
but my inner darkness still yearn
till then
i still walk alone...
=)
nights world

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 4:21 AM
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

i'm settling down? like finally?
i don't know myself either. but i hope it turns out fine
don't ask me much
maybe its the inner side of me
they say being attached is stressful
like having something to tie down. no freedom and stuff
i can start to feel it now
but nonetheless, scorpio always wanted love
its been close two years already. maybe a new start
would do me good or something
i'm getting rusty on such stuff
used to be dr love or something with ashley bro
HAHA~ those were the crappiest days
thinking of romantic stuff and things that can jio a girl
now, i'm all rusty. LOL!
oh well~ hope tml everything turns out fine
lex, maybe this year, your resolution do come true
and the last minute. =D
<3

did i mention? i'm at level 62 on trickster. ^^
bye world~

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 4:02 PM
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Monday, October 16, 2006

sorry guys for the lag of update.
was busying chionging my game. =x
cos the deadline is on the 17 in US time
finally finished it so can update
shall update from now on ok? =D hahas

many things still happening and i'm caught spinning
i know what i'm doing now is so so wrong
but i can't help it. is this the real me?
there are things that you know its wrong
but still people want to try it. why?
tell me, what's wrong with me?
i'm confused, i'm mad
i'm a bastard. >< can anything cure me?
sooner or later, i'll be labelled as bastard or smth
but i can't help it. is this what i really am
or is this a scorpio traid?
hais........................................

end of ma update.
shall come back soon
miss you bloggy.

promise that you'll <3 me like you never do

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 2:04 PM
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

ok. level 48 in trickster. =x
chiong like alot? cause this event ending. =(
so need hit 61 in like 3 days time. can de i believe.
what have i been doing?
i don't know. i feel so diff. as though something changed me
i'm another person now
sometimes i feel so bastard. i feel so .... ARGH
what is happening to me? is this the real me?
i hope not. =( life changes a peson really alot.
oh well. i gotta get myself back soon
after this feng kuang shi jian~
till den~
there goes my little update world

believe in something that won't happen = miracle

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 4:42 PM
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Monday, October 09, 2006

i know i've been abondoning my blog so...
tada~ i'm here to update. LOL
this blog is kinda quiet liao. no one comes, no one go. xD
but i just suddenly have the mood to blog?
the indonesians burners should really burn themselves
cause the super duper thick haze.
machiam at genting when i came out of my house
of cause it different cause its bad air. ><
had a sore throat on fri and sat. sun subsided cause no haze
met cost jie on sat. she complained it was super sian. - -
she met my friends than after eating go walk walk.
girls shopping is really shopping. not like me window. xD
jie complain tired then bring her go mrt station.
met suet jie then we go arcade meet back my friends
stayed home sunday. aud awhile but i'm rusty. can't chance 120 le. =(
then trickster all the way. up 13 levels?!?
because my fun part time! time to own!
ok i'm sneezing now. which ass is missing me so much! =x
ok. gtg. take care world
especially south-east asians
the haze is &@*#(@#*@#()@$&@*#@ bad. xD
ja~

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 1:52 PM
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Friday, October 06, 2006

seldom aud now
trickster yesterday. the only medicine i have
yeah. i rant abt how boring it is
but i still play. don't know why.
my phone's kinda quiet nowadays. so i started sms ppl! ^^
hahas! damm. bring me back to aud. maybe i'll only play at bunk.
hahas! n level people! jia you! last day le! =D
next will be o levels. i can remember mine though
spending my pathetic 16th birthday taking a maths paper.
but that was a friday. so went arcade straight at 10am
the uncle still so fucked up. =x
asked me for IC cause its earlier than 6pm.
happily showed him mine cause i'm 16! xD
tada~ level 24 on trickster? slow~~~~~ hahas. i go in also slack
no mood aud either. meii jio me play.
first round 140+ i sian diao le. then whole time no mood
lazy move fingers also. only hope to catch fm~ LOL
yada~ shall find something to do. i want to watch school rumble 2!
season 1 rocks! and i can't wait! till den...
take care world!

you were my everything

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 12:40 PM
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Thursday, October 05, 2006

be what you want to be
do what you want to do
think what you want to think
act what you want to act
let things be the way you always wanted
if its meant to be like this
no matter how you twist and turn
it'll end up just like how fate wants it to be
no matter how many rants you can have
no matter how much sorrows you kept in you
no matter how dishonest you are to reality
one thing remains
the truth will always be the truth
no one can write fate
no one can predict the future
one can only fight for themselves
what goes round comes round
someday, you'll find someone
you really look for
you're good by nature and nice looking by birth
someday, your prince will arrive
no need ask people look for you
you are what you are
you are special to yourself and to the other one
may love bless on you

fuck that flirt thing. thats how people think eh? great.

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 4:50 AM
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outing with mum
she accompany me go dental. =D
my teeth is clean! ^^ LOLS!
den we went bank do transaction.
we ate fish and co. damm nice and full!
tell you guys. when i say full its FULL! DAMM!
she pay. =D then go catch movie. stay alive
she pay. =x LOLS. she say treat me. thanks mum!
nice show in my opinion. 4/5 popcorns! =D
hate the night i'm having. super duper boring
yeah. trickster. now waiting aud see can log in not
ruby meii suddenly say. kor lets compete. ><
LOLS. so never mind lor. lazy level trickster too.
guns are so fucked up. so now waiting and blogging.
its been like 3 days? i wonder how are you
hahas. i'm still not kinda used to it though
but who cares. xD i'm feeling ok right now
thats the most important things. but i need more entertainment!
ARGH
nites world

someday, when my life has pass me by...

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 1:40 AM
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

talked to larry in the morning cos i saw him
at bunk on sunday
he mistook yiting was my gf? OMGWTFBBQSPIDERMAN
lols. he couldn't regconise me. T.T
oh well. YOU BETTER DO NOW! =D
audition in the afternoon, trickster at night
didn't went out. not in the mood either
tmr some repair guy coming to fix my dad's comp
and i need to be at home
can go out only after he left?
@*(^#&*@$^@#@
lols. its ok. i don't think have the mood either
this few days kinda quiet too. xD
everyone busy mugging or chionging online game.
lols. i'm the slack one here
school reopening on 25th oct. thats like so fast. ><
my birthday is coming soon too *points to the counter*
LOL. oh gosh. wonder this year birthday is how
candy said want to kope a keychain for me! *honoured*
hahas. i wonder what other surprises also
oh well. my 18th birthday. LOL
can't wait for 18. more entertainment le. ^^
wed got... DENTAL APPOINTMENT?!? lols. clean teeth. =D
hope this week will be good. =D
jia you to joy, candy, joanne, louis
and every nlevel candidates out there
do your best, it will end very fast. just like my o's. =x
hahas. till then..
nites world

it's a lonely road out there

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 4:09 AM
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Monday, October 02, 2006

lack of update. wasn't very keen on blogging too
anyway, started trickster and now
i'm level 15! but...... i've got smth to say...
MY JOB SUCKS! level 15 fighting level 7 de mobs
cos no money buy the ammo for my gun. SO DULAN!
but my job is supposed to be attack siao
the DMG is OT"L one. LOL
so in front xing ku nvm. LOL
ok la. yest went to bunk to play with yiting
met her yesterday also.
i on form sia. =x
go there dun waste time. LOL
quickly find room
found a random fast one
den played abt 15 games
5 games were big games
all i won. XD $$ and exp. WOHOOO!
got one still x4 den de game. another x3. wahahas!
2 games earn 1k+ le. LOLS
den she very 'I HATE LEX!!'
LOL! now anything below 135 is comfort le
still need train 135~ de songs. xD
ya nth much le
come back trickster awhile. HAHA!
begone my troubles

what is yours, will be yours

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 3:08 PM
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