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Monday, February 12, 2007

mood: sad, guilty, confused, stressed, burnt, tired, solitude


sat:
finally met dear after so so long
the feeling when seeing her outside the arcade
was so so nice
though it was only a short 3 hrs with you
thats the best i can ask for now
we didn't get to spend the night together
but i hope we'll have time alone
someday =)

2 more days only.
don't even know what will happen.
i made dear angry yesterday
went into an audi room
and the guy keep say me
like i know him
super stressed from my work till i scolded back
dear asked me stop
but i went on
she angry le =(
why am i so stupid
say only want dear happy
but always make her sad or angry
ARGH
feel so guilty now ><
tell me what to do...
and i have a new bro~ HAO aka trickser!
he's friendly man
and a nice guy too
turn out he is a good fren of ahbing my 'dear' too ^^
oh well. today last day of major projects
comp can collect anytime.
tink i go down tml or smth since i no school
all my things lost. hais....
all the effort i put in
nth going right
will you be there for me?

dear, sorry i mei you ting your hua
i know its i wrong
don't know what to do now
you seem so so angry
can anything be done ma?
=(
-broken

2 more days and i cant confirm anything
i think i've live much more than i supposed

See it thru ma eyes.. 3:28 PM
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Friday, February 09, 2007

what a start for the year
kinda suay le
my laptop burnt off
right before project submission
great. made me stay up whole night doing
got it in time
and now i'm fucking tired x.x
5 days hard to peii dear =(
hope tml when go bunk with dear
good things will happen bahs
i just don't know why
i keep have a bad feeling ><
save me ah....

lots things happen this past week
i'll get more updates once my comp is back
and projects are over
there goes my collections of
bleach, school rumber, naruto, death note
and many more =(
hope my information all can be retain
and retrieve
so many nice things inside ><

really aint feeling that well
so many bad things before the new year
went for shopping with yf on tues
got my new year stuff done
but i still want buy more
went to guang yin temple to pray
been some time since i went temple myself
to pray since i turned semi free thinker
but it doesn't kill to have someone
to pray to for blessings for yuor family
and loves one right? hahas
oh well. i forget to pray for myself
maybe thats why i became so suay T.T

5 more days but it doesn't seems anticipating
don't know why either
everyone is anticipating
but knowing what's ahead
i feel kind of bored off
sometimes i really wish for miracles
and i wonder will it come true
maybe its a blessing in disguise
even if its only a meetup for 5 minutes
i guess thats enough
for me to have spend a nice valentines
this year
as i said, there's always 365 days later =)
<3

See it thru ma eyes.. 4:37 PM
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Monday, February 05, 2007

i just aint myself at times
why am i so dumb?
if there's something i can say
that will be sorry.
1 more week. yet i cant hold it on
it seems blurry, the days ahead
i love blank entries.

that instant
i felt yet another blackout
am i missing out something important?
it really stinks to be reminded
that i'm nothing more than a
online one only
there are so many things that i don't know
and i keep tell myself
i've got to trust you
if i ever want something more than online
thats what keep me going
thats what kept my cool
if there's ever a need for me to be there
i'll never fail to say
'i still love you'
please trust me in everything you feel
i don't want to be stuck just there
i want to be your love
i want to be your everything
because right in me now
you're my everything
is it possible?
you said nothing is impossible
that's why i'm still trying
even after so many heartbreaks
please trust me

dreams - lex

one hell of a dream
a thousand of an answer
what comes will go someday
the dreams we once saw
the promises we once made
may be forgotten one day
all that are left are memories
memories that can be relieve
if we dare to dream

moving on with our lives
slowly our dreams become foggy
we tend to forget what we dream
while some fight on
to prove nothing is impossible
dreams are such wonderful thing
its up to you
whether will it come true
dreams will always be in my head
but reality
will always be in our lives
wake up and differentiate dreams from reality
you'll find the thousand of an answer
one day.

dreams..
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wo de mong xiang, jiu shi xiang xin
wo he ni, bu zhi hui zai mong xiang
erh shi zai xian shi

See it thru ma eyes.. 1:32 PM
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Sunday, February 04, 2007

i let it out today
i'm so sorry
i just couldn't control
i'm bad
i'm evil
i did wrong things
why did i let the emotions
get to my head
everythings going in a big whirlpool
that i myself don't know if i've drown

i just don't know why the pain
get sharper each time
my friend say its cause i'm too deep already
tell me why does it have to hurt so much

sometimes i think
its better to face up to reality
cause i need to face it sooner or later
one shall not force thyself
go if you have to go
its better off than being hurt


santa would have come if
he granted my wish on xmas

See it thru ma eyes.. 4:38 AM
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Friday, February 02, 2007

yest really KO-ed myself
wanted to go for a nap at night
and wake up 30 minutes later to peii dear maple after she pq
in the end i got oh so tired
and slept
wake up gess wad time?
9.45 in the morning!
SHYT! and i rushed to school
cause got a project meeting at 11am
now i in school.
its 11am and non of them are here x.x
bad start for the day i supposed
dear, so sorry k! tonight sure peii you. =)
u get to my level then lets chiong together =D

hahas. and now this computer is F*cking noisy
reading out every word i type
cause of a stupid program
shit it. =.= now everyone knows what i typed *(@#&^(*@#
hahas. at least i entertained myself. XD
damm. i use cntrl-x and contrl-v
it goes cut.. paste =.=

12 more days or something?
hahas. so fast so soon yet i still have no clue
what is going to happen.
don't even know if the things can ever get out not
thats what they say by
preparing but not going to use
my friends all tell me
just ask others la!
better than not able to have a happy time on that day
not as though no one asked you
LMAO! but i don't know la
and exams smacked right after exams
so many things in my head
i just need something
just that something
and i know that can be my motivation to carry on

let love fly in the air

Valentines - Lex
confused mind
flowery heart
brave soul
captivated eyes
matching personality
fleeting moments
what will live bring
if i ever don't have you?
will you be mine
this valentine?

so soon, yet everything is clouded.
i'll hold on, just for you
waiting in bliss ^^

See it thru ma eyes.. 11:05 AM
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