- xiaolex* i really wanna be with you

Monday, August 28, 2006

mood: a mixture of sad and happy
song: glamorous sky - nana feat nakashima mita

somethings happened today and i'm feel oh so i cant stand it anymore. its been holding on for so long and everything i'm giving in. yeah. go on on how i change and my attitude. somehow or rather none other ppl said that. out of my 300+ friends. cept you. excuses. just step out the door of my life please. i had enough. ya lying plain thru ur teeth. if u tink i'm tt dumb, think twice. i'm a scorpio and my sting hurts. when i turn my face on you, be sure you'll never even get a fuck in front of ma face once again. for you, you still have a chance. i'm not so damm give up like i treated someone else. but trust me, never will i listen to u fucking lies again.

somehow or rather. the person who cheered me up and made my day best was joy. =) thanks girl! its been kinda some time since we last chatted and stuff. thanks for even bothering to listen to me! ^^ hahas. and thanks for telling me so many gu shi! wahahas! pretty sad none others realised wad is going on. joy's the girl lahs! lols! but still, u ps me on sat. T.T hahas! i'll be waiting for the next sms when you asked me where am i again. =P dun care ah! study hard k joy! you really made me smile once again like you always do. just like kai xin guo to you eh? ^^

tml the last paper DBSY. i tink i can scrape thru? i never really study much. like josh bro said, GG! xD lululu~ after tml, rest for 2 days or so then i go find a job. i need $$. i promised christiie meii to teach her maths too. poor her. her o levels are coming yet somehow her tuition tcher left her. hmm. i dowan her to fail either. >< speacking of which, joy ah. you need maths tuition can also tell me. =D tuition together. =x LOLS. kidding. you got *ahem* =x hahas! though didi la cant teach much. =x WAHAHA!

somehow i tell myself, i am only a --- --- --- to you. never can i ever reach the stage like those guys i heard from you. though i really want. i feel so inferior to those ppl. went to ur hse and stuff. buying you stuff and everything. pei u whenever you needed someone. i'm just a million miles away to be considered treating you good.

but recently, you're like giving me a chance. but should i raise my expectation high? i really dunno wad to think. days passed since that time i knew the truth. i tried to keep that flame down. but since then it was never extinguished. i'm still waiting for that day we meet. thats why my wishlist never delete that line. are you reading? you're getting that flame to lit once again. if you never mean it, do you mind, toning it down? or have you really decided to allow me to lit the flame once again? i'm so confused.

tell me -----, tell me, what should i do? what should i tink? i need to control the flame. it'll never extinguish. it'll only diminish. =(

damm! i'm spoiling my own mood. nono! today is a happy day! lex will stay happy! but only you hold that magic to put a real smile on my face. you know? ^^ alrights. night peeps! i'll spend more time with you. =) i'll rather quit what i like now to spend the best time with you. to know you more, to really match up with those ppl i heard. but...... am i thinking too much once again? =(

the flame burns. but as small as a candle lit. if you meant to give me a chance, can i make it as huge as the sun? you're the only one who holds the magic to make me who i really am.

See it ~~thru~~ ma eyes.. 4:53 AM
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